once again im alone...fuckin shit im really sick and tired of people lying to me you took so much for granted....making me feel like i was teh one to be punished all the time....shady fuck i dont care what happens between us...im tired of your bullshit....manuel....go to her i know you do....dont get me involded in your fuckin "love triangles" sack of shit
(to those of you who dont know im a bit pissed at my "beloved" so dont get freaked out)

i did a new painting cuz i finally got more paints! anyways...its a bit weird its not like a complete person or anything for da matter i was just so frustraded with everything and i just wanted to paint how i've been feeling lately...about my relationships with "frens", "boyfrens", "family"...and just what was on my mind....ill get a picture of it cuz its to damn big to scan it and its on my wall XD

this week has LONG! >< my ryuichi outfit is done and i wanna go to da convention already...enrique called me last night...an ex boyfren if you dont know it was akward as fuk! TT_TT i membered all the times da he called me and shit and fuck i can tell hes a wreak not of me i dont think trying to not flatter myself but he dropped outta skool and still doing drugs i can tell that in his voice that he was....i feel bad for him...so misguided...he wanted to talk to me "sometime" i dunno..he asked me if i had a bf and he kinda made fun of manny for being so cute and lovely...hes like "i can be romantic too" cuz my beloved da way ^3^ i dunno wha to think about him he doesnt sound like the enrique i knew...shit

WOOT! i finished knives! im TEH SEX! look! oints: hehehehehe im hyper! well i used up all my paints T_T someone gimme money KYLIE gimme PAY UP! XD

ok! next week is gonna be crazy as fuk! i cant wait...eventhough my homie kylie left today to ok.! TT_TT im finally gonna go to an anime convention! its ANIzona there is gonna be the 3 voice actors there all from Full Metal Alchemist....roy, al, and that one chick i dont care for her....but i really want to meet travis.... (hes teh sex) and im gonna be cosplayin'!!! im gonna be cheza from wolf's rain! i dunno if im gonna buy a wig or not im mexican so i dont have much money IF YOURE MEXICAN THEN YOU KNOW! XD if any of you who read this want something from the con. tell me and i might get it! ok!