single again. but im ok.

been really bored. so i made more tags in my blackbook.

coming out really good.

fucking guys are gonna be the end of me, im telling you.

fuckin shit. im a magnet to them.

want to be friends. i dont want anymore right now.

damnit.

have started school again.

enjoying culinary.

work blows. im a bastard step child there.

i have decided to focus my studies than work.

my father tells me now i dont have to work.

i kinda lost my creative touch in a way with all this drama that i get.

when tuesday rolls around i will be able to do some paintings.

i hope in some writing.

i really need a computer. my sidekick doesnt count.

i feel so old now.

man just read what i put on my last journal entry

SO OLD ive gone out with two other guys after brandon

manuel and tony

broke off when i realized i had no love to give

well at the time

just trying to get by talking to alot of people now

most of them want me LOL

:3

some of them are cool and understanding of what i went through with those other fooz

im fine now talking to ashley again man i missed her so damn much

kylie cant come to az no more pero ill get the money to get her over hur

she told me this yesterday i started crying and got emo and a bit pyschotic

but besides that im doing fuckin great

being going to evening school made me really start writing shit that i havent written in a while it real fuckin nice. been real poetic haha. writting about love

been ok found a new lover, Brandon hes so cool!

doing better ing school.

really miss being here and making art

but sadly i dont have time for it anymore

only poems

but at least im trying right

sorry.

<3 Chell

i dont have the net no more.

it fuckin sucks the only way i can get back on here is going to my sister's apt.

which is several miles away.

wtf!

so i wont be coming here so often.

it feels like fuckin ages.

damn this fuckin sucks i dont have any inspuration to fuckin make art.

alot of drama has been going on.

my brother-in-law has been talkin shit about me to my father giving my good name a shitty one.

fuckin asshole.

dat guy abe has been playing mind games with me and hes pissed cuz i dont talk to him so often.

he wants me but then he doesnt.

But i have another love interest, Brandon.

HE really wants to HANG OUT and TALK unlike ABE!

I think im going to pick brandon instead of abe.

if abe doesnt step up bitch knows my fone is fucked but hes still pissed.

my cellfone a RAZR is fucked up getting a new one soon.

Thursday is the day its coming thru the mail.

ON FEBRUARY 15 is my birthday.

so give some love.

<3 Chell